Youngest Child Syndrome?

I always had it better than my sis. That's the privilege of being the youngest in the family. During my childhood days, my sis is often part of my many blames (as the eldest, she has to set a good example- any of my unjustified actions are 'seen' as partially her fault) and my parents were more forgiving and less strict towards me.

I'm use to people giving in to me. As a child, I used to run to my sis and say 'hor ee, hor ee' (in Hokkien it means 'give it to her') whenever she had something I don't have. My mom used to say 'hor ee' to my sis whenever I sulk, so I guess that's where I picked that from. Over the years, being wiser and more matured (ahem!), I like to think that I've learned to give in more to people. I'm no longer the sulky and demanding child. Instead I'm the other extreme, I find it difficult to voice out how I really feel. When caught in the situation of me and another person wanting the same thing, I no longer demand 'hor ee' out loud. Instead I curl up and give in (it doesn't mean that I'm willing, but I'll do so to keep the peace).

Recently I met my double. The double is years younger than myself and we were both saying 'hor ee'. Well, something like that, just that one is silently saying 'hor ee' in the heart and the other outloud. Being the elder one (which means I have to be all matured about it..ish) I gave in and the next day patch the friendship with a box of chocolates. It's my first time acting as the elder sister and it's difficult. I'm still stuck with the youngest child syndrome.